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September 5, 2013


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Journal Entry: Thu Sep 5, 2013, 10:47 AM

i think i told everyone,  lol, but i was diagnosed with sleep apnea 6 weeks ago. i did two sleep studies and yesterday a sleep tech came to my house and brought the " CPAP" machine. it increases air pressure which keeps me from suffocating while sleeping.  after the first sleep study they found that  i was waking up (i did know it was that bad, but i guess they can tell all sorts of things from sleep studies) ELEVEN times an hour. 

my doctor told me that my quality of life would change dramatically  after i got used to it. 

i have to use this machine which pushes air into the mask,  you can see why i was a little (!!!!) worried about getting used to it....
Nasal Mask by crazyruthieCPAP machine by crazyruthie

i used it last night and slept 8 hours without waking up. i didn't have nightmares, i woke up feeling like it was time to get up and felt alert and in a good mood!  
cross your fingers for me! this might be the key to getting rid of lots and lots of problems (mental and physical)  and getting off a lot of the psych meds i have to take!


  • Mood: Zest
  • Listening to: the beastie boys
  • Eating: toast
  • Drinking: cranberry juice
Skin by Hanafae (modified by crazyruthie)
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TriciaS Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2013
:hug:It sounds good!!...8 hours is wonderful!!
Harrisons-Forge Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Professional General Artist
That is brilliant news :hug:
crazyruthie Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013   Traditional Artist
thanks so much! :huggle:
Harrisons-Forge Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2013  Professional General Artist
I know what it is like to have sleep problems, but thankfully I don't have apnoea....mine is just terminal insomnia lol 
crazyruthie Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2013   Traditional Artist
actually, for years i thought that way my problem too! i was so scared of sleeping, (i guess somewhere in the back of my mind i had some sort of idea that the apnea was going on) that i hardly ever did. i've always been scared of the dark and thought sleeping was like dying. little did i know!
do you have trouble going to sleep or trouble staying asleep? 
if i lived alone i'd sleep during the day and have all the light on all night!
Harrisons-Forge Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2013  Professional General Artist
The subconscious often works in mysterious ways doesn't it.

I am a bit of an oddball in as much as I have a  combination of health issues which adds up to totally weird....
ADHD gives me tonnes of energy, regardless of how little I eat or the time of day...
My natural sleep rhythm is classed as Extreme Night Owl, which gives me a going to bed time of around 4am, getting up at 10am naturally....
CFS/ME (probably chronic Lyme Disease) which is just weird (pain, immune problems, constant itching etc.)
A twisted spine.......constant pain
Spinal osteoarthritis.....chronic pain and mobility issues

None of the above are conducive to a sensible nights sleep, especially when you have children and school routines to follow. Having said all that though the ADHD means that I don't need a lot of sleep anyway, so I manage to survive fairly well.
The dark doesn't scare me either, I had a near death experience as a child following an RTC, I KNOW there is nothing to fear ;)
crazyruthie Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2013   Traditional Artist
wow, you have a collection of "isms" as big as i do! i have BPD, OCD, PTSD, general anxiety disorder, diabetes, agoraphobia, the apnea of course, lactose intolerance, some food/eating issues,  asthma, arthritis, migraine headaches...haha!
what does RTC mean? i looked it up in a couple of places and none of the explanations could have been fitting to the context you use the acronym in.
you sound very brave for all you must have to deal with! 
i'm not afraid of death in the least, it's more life that i'm afraid of. 
are you in treatment for some/all of those problems?
btw, i really like your artwork!  
Harrisons-Forge Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2013  Professional General Artist
RTC=Road Traffic Collision, I ran out in front of a laden lorry....I was bloody lucky to survive. I don't think they wanted a kid with ADHD upstairs, so I got sent back to torment my family :D
I think that because I faced death at such a young age not much phases me and it made me a very spiritual person. I value my life in a way that not many people do these days :)
Because of the ADHD, I have intolerances to a lot of things, including many drugs..I have tried pretty much everything there is on offer and medicinal cannabis seems to be the only one I can tolerate, but the UK is going backwards on that one, role on a general election :D
The statistics on that are great.....25% of people in the UK smoke. 80% of smokers do/have smoked cannabis. 80% of 25%=20% of the population. That is 1 in 5 people... If you take into account that roughly 40% of the population are children, that leaves 1 in 3... If you take into account that many people who use cannabis do not smoke it but use some other method of ingestion (vapourisers, eating, drinking), you are probably closer to half the adult population of the UK!! We have an INSANE system over here :lol:
I manage my ADHD with diet and everything else with will power ;)

I really like your art too :hug:

crazyruthie Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2013   Traditional Artist
dayum that's scary. your parents must value you even more than before the accident. it's remarkable that it gave you such a positive attitude. i envy you that. i've been through oh i won't even try to explain, but the thing my therapist says when things are really really tough...just ride it out. we know there's nothing else to do but survive. it sort like you applied that to your life, especially since you said willpower is so important. sounds like there's some things you just have to ride out.
i am a medical mj patient! i live in california, i remember voting for the initiative that legalized it. it was very exciting. it helps soooo many things in my life. 
so many people have an automatic response to anything that involves drugs. the don't think. they don't care. a lot more people died from painkiller addiction than people who used marijuana. (NONE)  
it's nice to meet a person like minded.  
i was surprised that the usa was way ahead of the uk  in attitudes about marijuana. 
we have big good changes here and even more bad changes, but i guess you deal with what you've got. 
oh dear, huge ramble! yikes!
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